From the start I felt lost and now through this journey the main goal now is to discover self-acceptance of my true nature.  I have encountered external factors that steered me on a different path.  How can I make money?  Is one of them.  There are many articles on this topic, and I read many of them.  Now this is a great strategy and career path.  I realized, after a month doing this, it’s not my path.

At the start of all of this, I created a website and paid for a domain https://officeacronyms.blog/ I also signed up for Stripe and published a contribution page.  I did all of this in parallel with writing I felt very organized and prepared.  I didn’t think I was going to get paid, but just in case, I was ready to receive some contributions.

When I joined Medium, not long after creating my site, I thought “Wow, this is a quick way to increase an audience.  This is what every article I been reading is about, I’m on the right path.”  I started receiving claps, people were following, and subscribing.  It felt good.  Really good.  Then I started fixating on my stats.  Now keep in mind my numbers are low.  I kept reading about all the right steps to take to have more and get paid.  I wanted to increase those numbers.

The question from headquarters became, why?  Why am I doing this?  Why am I refreshing my window to check for more claps?  I am not planning to quit my job or switch careers.  Earning money is not my motivation.  Having followers or subscribers, although I am grateful and it feels amazing, is not why I started with my first post.   My first post started because I felt lost, so I wanted to write it down, share, and forget. 

I don’t want to obsess over the numbers.  I’m prepared, it might be for no reason and that’s OK.  I need to accept that sometimes following the right steps might not fit with my path.  It wasn’t a waste of time because I’ve learned a lot during the process.  Efficiency has always been part of my life motto.  I must remember my why.  I want to write, share, and forget.   Great lesson that I hope to remember when I earn my first penny.